Italian Born Chinese

I’m unsupervised today, and this is why I’m using the computer.

John took 2 weeks off from work to be home with baby and me.  He went back to work today.  Unfortunately, our ah-yi started having ab pain last week and found out that she had pelvic inflammation.  She kept going to the hospital for IV everyday this week and finally resigned yesterday.  Today, I’m home all by myself with Logan.  We’re doing fine even though I do feel busy having to do everything by myself now.

John spolit us when he was home in the 2 weeks.  I never had to change one single diaper until today.  He did everything for Logan except breastfeeding - that’s my part.  ^_^  That was all I did for Logan for 2 weeks and I still felt so tired.  Recovery was hard and painful.  Labor was painful, I thought I was gonna die from pain during the process.  I was depressed for 2 or 3 days when Logan’s jaundice was serious, was so sad and worried.  Now the painful parts are only breastfeeding and not washing my hair.  Breastfeeding can be enjoyable, and I’d love it so much if it didn’t hurt.  Not washing my hair has driven me crazy.  I’m quite certain I’ll be washing my hair by the end of next week.  I can’t wait until June 24.  No way.  No wayyyyy.

I love Logan.  So much.  SO so much.  I watch him for hours and hours.  For a few nights I had him sleep between John and me.  I could watch him sleep for hours then.  But then one time I almost hit him while I slept, so we decided to put him back into his crib.

John is absolutely insane with the baby.  If you have not seen what being real possessive or obsessed is like, come visit us.  John is in love with our baby like crazy.  He can’t separate himself from the baby.  Always holding him, telling him how much he loves him and how incredibly cute and precious he is, and kissing him so much that I’ve been afraid of John hurting Logan’s cheeks.  He was sad and missed Logan so much when my parents took Logan out of our apartment.  He adores his son even more than I had expected.

A few of the nights, John made me sleep in the room while he stayed in the lounge with Logan so to make sure that Logan didn’t wake me by his cries.  He brought Logan to me only when he got really hungry and had to be fed.   All the many things that he did for me really helped me recover and feel better.  He is really a good husband and loving father.  I’m so grateful having him.

I’m still quite tired these days even though I miss going out for walks and seeing my friends.  (And I miss John too.  It feels as if we’ve not spent time together, just the 2 of us.)  Can’t wait for my liberation day - June 25!  I’ll be blogging again then when I (hopefully) have more energy.

P.S.  Thanks for all your prayers and thoughts.  Logan is so precious to us.  He changes daily and has become even cuter.  ^_^  (Oh, and yes, in that sense, he does look more like me.)  ^_^  We love him with all our hearts.