Fatherhood after 3 months
Posted by John on August 25th, 2006
Today Logan is 3 months old. In these 3 months I’ve been so very happy, sometimes tired, but never depressed. Of course I’ve been frustrated at not being able to help Becky with her breastfeeding problems.
I have also learned a lot about myself. Being a father is a new side of my personality that no one had seen before, including myself. Seeing this cute face looking back at me just fills me with joy:
I am not even sure he recognizes me, but I am just happy whenever he looks at me and smiles. I want to spend as much time as I can with him, because I don’t want him to be closer than anyone else except me and Becky. I don’t even want our own parents to be closer to him than us, let alone the ahyi, a stranger! I don’t want my baby to cry in my arms, preferring the ahyi to hold him.
I am glad that we can afford for Becky to stay home and take care of Logan. Of course I know that I cannot shield him from the outside world, but for the moment I think it’s best for Becky and I to be closest to him.
I’ve never been someone with strong opinions, I always say “whatever”. But when it comes to Logan I have very strong convictions. Hopefully they are good for Logan.